Jun 1
kimkan2
kimkan2 , Posted on SUPPORT NETWORK Blog

Why Now?

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Woke up; got ready for a day shift, which was not the norm. Felt like I was having a panic attack and looked for my phone to call work and tell them I would be "a little late", but couldn't find my phone. And the effort and the worry wore me out. An hour late, thankfully a co-worker's mother checked on me. We went to the firehouse a block away to have me checked out, but I was in denial, still, and the EMTs doing my vitals told me I should probably send my doctor within the day. Their supervisor, however, said my "long left tunnel branch" was presenting in a way that caused him concern.

I felt foolish and like I was making a mountain out of a molehill. But when the cardiologist explained that my long term shortness of breath was not my asthma flaring, but a potential cardiac arrest, you could have knocked me down with a feather.

Two days in observation, and I had my heart attack. I feel blessed and pissed at the same time. I should have known, given my risk factors, that it was bound to happen. But I thought I was immune. I question everything now. The blessing is I don't take life or time for granted. But now, I am a full-blown worrier and hypochondriac!

There has to be some middle ground where the Event doesn't overshadow Everything. ~ Kimberly Kincaid, Heart Attack Survivor 8/4/2016

4 Comments
  • NicGriffin
    NicGriffin,
    Hi Kimberly, Reading your story was incredible. Reminds me to always pay attention to my health. They say that your body speaks to you and your story is proof that we should always listen. I understand how that to the extreme could make us into hypochondriacs but I still think we should pay attention. Thank goodness you're okay and you had been under observation when it happened. I think the best bet is to try to identify what caused it, was it stress, lifestyle? Have you started Cardiac Rehab?
  • JamesPL
    JamesPL,
    Worrying about every little thing you feel after an event is common. I have questioned my cardiologist about little aches and pains in my chest numerous times. She has sat me down and explained why I am experiencing these things. In the end, I have concluded that if she is telling me these are normal, I'm fine with that. I would suggest similar conversations with your doctor about any concerns you are having. It has brought me peace of mind.
  • esBee
    esBee,
    i think attack or arrest changes all of us. i went into arrest while in the hospital and when i got discharged, i was scared to go to sleep. i had extreme anxiety and still suffer from occasional panic attacks 6mo later. when my BP spikes i wonder if i should go to the ER. when my heart flutters, i wonder if i should go to the ER. if i'm breathless and fatigued, i don't know if it's my heart or asthma. turns out that when they were doing all the tests while i was in the hospital i had had a previous 'silent heart attack.' now i worry constantly if i didn't know about the first heart attack, how will i know if i have a second? a hypochondriac thinks he is sick when he isn't and worries excessively about getting sick. you ARE sick. you had a heart attack. you survived a heart attack. i think what you are feeling is perfectly normal. read some of the survivor stories here and i think you'll find a lot of people feel like you do after surviving a heart attack or arrest.
  • AHAASAKatie
    AHAASAKatie,
    Thank you so much for sharing with us!
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