WHAT???? I'M HAVING A WHAT??? HEART ATTACK???%u200BApril 27, 2016 started out to be a good day. My brother in law & his wife were visiting from NY (I live in Florida). We went to the beach, shopping and then came home to make a nice dinner we were going to eat on the back patio. As I was in the kitchen cooking with my sister in law I began to feel as if my throat was burnt. I honestly thought that somehow the steam from the stove burned my throat. With a lot of water it still wasn't going away. I tried to ignore it and continued with dinner. I sat outside with everyone including my husband. I ate dinner but was still bothered by my burning throat.
%u200BI finally decided that I needed to step away and went into my bedroom. As time went on the throat got worse and i started feeling painful chest discomfort along with back and shoulder and neck pain. I was sure I was coming down with something and even thought the pain in my chest was being caused by a gas pocket. My husband came into the room a couple of times checking on me and to see if I needed to go to ER. No,I said....this will pass. After a couple of hours my husband came into bed to sleep. This has now be going on for at least 3 hours. I tried to go to sleep hoping it would all pass but was unable. I started to feel nauseus and finally woke my husband saying "i think im having a heart attac" but that was just a phrase to me....I never thought I was really having a heart attack. On the way to the ER I started having the worst jaw pain...it was horrible. Within minutes at the ER I was hooked up to an EKG and a Dr. stood over me and said i was having a heart attack...the room immediately filled with nurses and doctors. IV's were started, chewable aspirin, and nitro under my tongue. Then i was wheeled into operating room where a Cardiologist put in 2 stents through my groin. I needed 3 stents but they wanted to wait and see how I would react to the dye because i am diabetic. I had the 3rd stent put in the next day through my wrist. It was and still is so surreal to me. I am going to cardiac rehab 3 days a week. I am now taking a whole bunch of new meds but the biggest thing is that I am so scared. Every minute of everyday I am so very scared that it's going to happen again. I feel like everyone's life has moved on except mine. Because i appeared fine thanks to modern medicine, everyone thinks I am fine. I feel so alone and I feel nobody gets it. In my head I feel I can go at any minute and I look around and watch my husband going to work. I watch my friends go on with their lives and all I want to do is shout from the rooftops "hey everybody, I'm dying"! Does anyone else have these feelings?