trying to keep going.
I am a 48 year old male. My problems started at age 38 when I had a heart attack. Had a stent put in place at that time. Two weeks later had the same symptoms but this time required by-pass surgery. While the by-pass was a success the procedure for closing was not. The wires were not tied off tight enough and my rib cage never healed together.
This wasn’t noted until 2 years after surgery when the pain would not go away. I went into rehab but ended up on pain medication. While this gave me a quality of life the pain still was there when I over did it. I was on pain medication for eight years and did well.
I have had to call the fire dept several time to help me out of the tub from soaking because the pain is so bad I can not lift myself up. ER visits are a few times each month thinking it’s a heart attack only to be told it sternum. The pain comes on worse when I walk, lie down, clean, bathe, sing. My wife left because having sex is oust of the question. I can’t even cast a fishing pole. I have been in a couple of pain management clinics but dismissed because my heart Dr will not allow nerve blocks to that part of my body. Since the surgery I have had four stents placed. If I did have the blocks I wouldn’t have felt the blockages and could have had a another heart attack. My family Dr has told me to fight for the nerve blocks because the worst that could happen is I do have a silent heart attack. This tells me my life is not worth saving.
I can not begin to tell you how many visits I have had to the ER and admitted. I deal with a full circle every day. I wake up in pain I go to sleep in pain. I also have severe angina and a panic disorder along with sternum pain. All in which cause chest pain. When the pain comes on I have to start sorting symptoms into categories. One for heart, panic or chronic. Each causes the other to get worse. There is so much to this story than I can write. I am looking for an advocate for pain medication so I can have a quality of life even if small. I am tired of being told by my family Dr and being admitted into mental health facilities because of depression. I keep telling him I would not be so depressed if I were not in consent pain and could live some what of a life. Martha at Northwood can not believe this story and nobody is doing anything about it. Even more floored when I told her all they want to do is commit me to a facility. Not sure where to turn at this point. so so much more to the story.