Life with a defective heart
Hello,My name is Jeff and I'm a 39 year old father of 3 and husband to an amazing lady. I was born with an aortic bicuspid valve and had to go for check ups since I was a baby. Medication before dentist appointments, try not to get to sick or ride roller coasters etc.. my 38th annual check up I was told I developed an aneurysm in my thoracic aorta. I was devastated and terrified. I also have anxiety and OCD. The diagnosed kind not the I like my skittles all one color kind. It's been a hard year and as a father all I want is to be there for my kids. I also suffer from high blood pressure and acid reflux among other stomach issues. I've been depressed and struggling with the concept of time and what legacy I've created on this earth. I go back in February for a check to see if it's grown. It's currently at 4.7cm. I'm working and what not but i feel like it's such a waste of time but the bills don't stop. Surgery is so scary to me and living with a time bomb makes life challenging but at the same time I'm trying to live and be with my family as much as I can. I could go on for days but that's my story. I'm scared, it's hidden and hard to talk about to the average person.