Heart Aches x2I'm not sure where this going to post but I certainly hope I can get some feedback. Also, hoping I can locate comments.
I recently had open-heart surgery. Left main artery had at 95-97% blockage where a stent had been inserted only a year ago. A year ago, I had been on blood thinners from my 1st open heart surgery (mitral valve stenosis). I didn't feel well; just an all round yukky, lethargic feeling. Turns out I was bleeding internally because of blood thinners. They found a small ulcer type laceration in my stomach. A year before the internal bleeding episode, I'd had a stent inserted - I'm not even sure I've the year by year right anymore.
I'm a 61 year woman who worked for 36 years. 4 years ago, I retired and it's been one thing after another. Right after I retired, I was diagnosed with lung cancer. Aggressive chemo and 30 zaps of radiation later and the CAT scan shows no evidence of disease. Not long after that, I started experiencing big-time shortness of breath and so the beginning of all my heart issue. Since then, I've had a heart issue every year.
The recent one was a double by-pass in the left main artery. I just came home from the hospital last week.
Because of this and the last 4 years, I am so depressed. I put on a semi-smile of recovery but inside I'm so, so scared and my brain takes off on a journey of "what ifs" which I can't seem to stop. My quality of life has taken so many hits, I feel like my body is at war waiting for the next bomb to go off. I know I have to think & be positive but it's really hard to be hopeful when I feel like I live in a minefield.