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I Suffer from Cardiophobia, I have Symptoms of a Heart Condition
Out of desperation, I had to join some sort of a support group for this. I'm a 21 year old female and it all started in 2019 when I relapsed with anorexia after a 5 year recovery period. Things got worse and though I'd already been a hobby distance runner, I became severely addicted to exercise on a very restrictive diet. I'm talking 4 hours doing cardio a day for a year. In 2020, I'd begun with heart palpitations, they only got worse. For two weeks straight, I'd get them whether I was running, walking, or not. Then they'd subside for a bit. I felt fatigued, dizzy, had shoulder and arm pain on my right side, and I felt pressure on my chest. No other symptoms, but my anxiety made them worse. I am now in recovery from my ED, but after my recent EKG suggested I had a "sinus rhythm" and "left atrial ***********", my fear has become crippling. I can barely sleep and eat, I'm depressed, and my Holter Monitor results/ Echicardiogram results are in tomorrow but I cannot cope with the possible diagnosis of heart failure. I don't know how I'll react. I'm already in tears breaking down every night. I'm scared. I don't know how to cope. Aside from drawing, running is another passion/stress relief, and I can't bear being told I can never do it again.
AHAModerator, February 16, 2021 9:30am EST
Thank you for sharing your story with the support network. I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this and feeling so anxious. I recommend raising these concerns to your cardiac care team to see if they have any resources to share with you. As you hear from others on the support network, I can also share some resources on Heart Failure, as well as Mental Health and Stress Management. Please keep us updated on how you're doing.
The AHA Team
jerzeycate, February 17, 2021 4:48am EST
You have now been to the doctor and have his report. What did he say?
Is there permanent damage as a result of your anorexia Nervosa? If there isn't you are quite lucky.
If there is, well you will--as all of us do--decide to put on your big girl ******* and get to work on addressing the symptoms of your heart disease.
Let me know what happened at the doctor so we can give you some direction.
It's A Great Day To Be Alive..
JamesPL, February 17, 2021 7:43pm EST
Don't assume the worst especially when it comes to running and exercise. Often times, as part of the recovery, exercise is encouraged. I had a quintuple bypass and was an avid runner at the time. After months of rehab and recovery, I resumed my running and have been doing it ever since. My cardiologist has encouraged it. But again, don't assume the worst and remember that there are remarkable treatments for various types of heart disease. Those treatments are always getting better too!
Please let us know how you are doing. I wish you well!
Gmccanna, February 24, 2021 10:30pm EST
Thank you for being honest and open about your past and current problem. As you probably know by now, that is the first step. Recovery is not easy but fellowship makes it much easier and lasting, glad you reached out to all of us here.
I hope you received good news about your heart, if not, your not alone and we're here for you...your not alone.
Please keep us informed on how your doing. Your in our thoughts and prayers.