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NewPacer73, March 21,  2020  3:48pm EST

is COVID19 making you nervous?

I know I'm nervous about being sheltered in and kind of afraid of getting this virus. My extrovert soul is dying slowly. I have survived a lot of cardiac emergencies over the years, but we always knew what was next. This virus is like an invisible enemy. We all want to be tested, but there's not enough tests out there for symptomatic people or even hospitalized patients, so we can't have them testing the so called "vulnerable" who are not symptomatic. The fear of someday having to go to the hospital that houses so many cases of COVID19 is lurking in the back of my head. My intellect says I can't control it, so let it go. My emotion is fear of the unknown. My affairs are in order, I have money to live on, etc. I don't know if I have doctors anymore because they all want to I don't really want to go to waiting rooms of sick people anyway. Is anyone else thinking these stressful things? I'm not always stressed, but this a pretty scary thing going on now. We don't know for how long too. And my younger brother just died so I'm a little "wired" with emotion right now.

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  • JamesPL
    JamesPL, March 21,  2020  4:17pm EST

    Yes, a lot of us are stressed because of this outbreak and for a variety of reasons. You're right that you can't control it so do the things you can control such as isolating yourself. You're fortunate to have savings to get through it. What I would recommend is to concentrate on the positive, not the negative. The media is sensationalizing the whole crisis so the good news is not emphasized. I have read some very promising things about the anti-malaria drug as showing some real promise not only as a treatment but in reducing the time in which the virus is contagious. Also, China, South Korea and Japan all seem to be on the other side of the curve. In the case of China, they claim to have no new reported cases. I have also read that the coming warm weather is beginning to have an effect on diminishing the virus as is usually the case similar to the flu season. It's a difficult time but one day we'll look back on this as a bad memory.


  • NewPacer73
    NewPacer73, March 21,  2020  5:01pm EST

    Thanks,, James. Unfortunately, as much as I want to believe those positives you mention, the top doctors on Pres Trump's task force tell you: 1. Japan went down in cases and are now in the second wave of cases increasing. 2. This is an 18 month ordeal, not a warm weather cures it situation. 3. We don't know who has it, so we don't know who is contagious. 4. Our medical staff don't have masks and protective gear, but today ICE went out in masks on the orders of Ken Cucinnelli, so the priority is not our medical heroes and first responders, it's immigrant enforcement who knew where immigrantss are because they are on shelter in place orders. If they were terrorists or really dangerous offenders I'd be all for it. That wasn't Ken's approach here when he was in office. 5. Most people now in hospitals are under 54, so who really is vulnerable. The promised vaccine is at least a year off, even in a rush vaccine, malaria med (being tested on people who are probably not going to make it through COVID19). 6. We don't have even a moderate supply of ventilators although the WH says we have a "stock pile" but the states need to do it on their own, because the feds are not shipping clerks. and 7. The President disbanded our Pandemic Team we had (I worked on pandemic task force myself on the state level) and he promised we would be at zero now (remember?) and here we are well over 11,000 cases. However, to support you, some corona viruses do go away seasonally, but with Japan going through wave two it doesn't look good. We may have some Tamiflu to ease symptoms. New York and Philly airports were ordered closed for departures today by the FAA because air traffic controllers are not coming to work (maybe they're sick???) and because those cities do not want this disease to spread. This will get much, much worse before it gets better according to medical experts. I stopped believing politicians of any party long ago. Nor the media. But expert doctors, I will listen to them. I rely on them to save me with serious cardiac problems, and so far, they have come through Two thumbs up and an elbow tap. lol

  • NewPacer73
    NewPacer73, March 21,  2020  5:19pm EST

    Correction: We were supposed to be a zero by now, according to some politicians, but we are now over 24,000, not 11000. and climbing. If the Army Corps of Engineers are building 10,000 beds, I think we can imagine things are going to get pretty bad, sorry to say. Hope not. But just really think so.

  • JamesPL
    JamesPL, March 21,  2020  5:49pm EST

    I don't agree. I think we will come out of it sooner than that. I agree we should listen to doctors but they themselves disagree. I've read about the promising effects of treatment meds from doctors. I also read about a study that was done looking at countries that have a high incidence of malaria. There were virtually no COVID-19 cases. Conclusion was that either the virus doesn't like warm climates or the malaria meds are very effective in warding it off.

    Forgive my optimism.


  • AHAASAKatie
    AHAASAKatie, March 22,  2020  9:24am EST

    Good morning, 

    I can totally relate to this thought, "My extrovert soul is dying slowly," - totally. I have been home officed for 5 years, so I am used to working alone. But on the weekends, my house has always been social. My daughter's friends came and stayed for what seemed like the whole weekend. My friends came on Saturday nights, and we would bbq or paint (I'm an artist on the side) and hang out. Then I have my beach friends, people who I have walked the beach with, watched the moon rise over the ocean with and ok, maybe drank a glass of wine or two with :). 

    It took years to build my social network of friendship and support. This group has been with me through my back surgery & life-threatening DVT, my daughter's major surgery, the death of my dad, and the catastrophic issues facing my mother. And in some ways, it feels like they were gone effective March 16th. It's just been a week, but it feels like a lifetime. 

    And I also realize this new social distancing is really hard. Increadliy important but hard. The experts recommend that if you hunker down against coronavirus, don't stop reaching out. 

    I am lucky that we are finding ways to still connect. For my texting set of friends, we have a group chat going and are sharing photos of exciting things we see on solitary walks. For my Facebook friends, we have kept a running thread on projects to do at home to stay busy. 

    For the COVID19 info, I can share what we have regarding resources that can help you informed. Information is changing so rapidly it is worthwhile to keep checking. 

    Coronavirus (COVID19) Resources for all 

    What Heart Patients Should Know about Coronavirus

    Please know that the Support Network is here for you too! We are a warm and loving community of survivors, and we have the unprecedented opportunity to support each other through these next few weeks. 

    I have been noodling an ask for the whole community for a while. If you feel like meeting new people, go into one of the other condition forums and say hello and start a discussion. Let's move away from being condition-specific survivors or caregivers. Let's move to connect and get to know each other on a larger scale in what is now our new normal of social distancing.

    From one extrovert to another, I hope this post helps. 

    We are not alone. 

    Best Katie

  • Jessica0509
    Jessica0509, March 24,  2020  9:28pm EST

    Hi NewPacer, I think it is completely normal to experience the feelings you have right now. We are experiencing something we have never experienced before. I'm very sorry to hear about your brother. Experiencing a loss then followed by a pandemic must be difficult and I can't imagine what you're going through. I'm really glad you're apart of the support network, as this is a great place to connect with others about your experience. The American Heart Association has some resources on how to mitigate stress during this very stressful time. Please don't hesitate to reach out. We are rooting for you!

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