Annemarie Ward - Having Faith in the Failure
Annemarie is a heart transplant recipient and American Heart Association, volunteer.
Failing. This is scary word, isn’t it? I know that, “failing” terrifies me. I tend to be an overthinker (which I believe is quite common for most people) and I let all my thoughts get the best of me. I fear failing, in various aspects of my life. My job, my relationships, and most importantly… my health. I willingly admit that I have let the concept of failing, completely consume me. I ask myself questions such as, “Will I ever improve in my career?” or “Will I ever get into shape?” I let doubt take over and lies fill my head. I have let these negative thoughts stop me, from pursing choices that would better my life. This is a part of being human. We constantly compare ourselves to others success, beauty, and achievements. Recently, I have allowed thoughts to enter my mind telling me, “I’m not good enough” or “I’m not smart enough.” I allowed this way of thinking, to become a way of living. These thoughts ultimately led me to failure.
However, when I had reached a point of failure, I had two options. The first, allow these negative thoughts and lies, to continue controlling my choices. Second, I could embrace this failure and choose to learn from it. I believe we all have a sense of pride and it is difficult to accept defeat at times. I was wallowing in my failures and insecurities, which I then realized wasn’t going to change any circumstances. I chose to embrace the insecurities and be proactive. I am starting at the beginning and I have a long way to go. I am making minor changes, such as my way of thinking, simply by affirming that my failures are OKAY. Albert Einstein failed his entrance exam into Swiss Federal Polytechnic school, but he still persevered and is known as one of the greatest thinkers of our time! Bill Gates attempted to make his own software company at seventeen, to which the company completely fell through and failed. However, he was resilient and is one of the wealthiest individuals in the world. Failure can be a gateway to a new opportunity, new perspective, and new chances. Therefore; if you cheat on your diet or failed to reach a physical goal, accept it and embrace it. BUT be proactive on making sure you’re trying things differently, to experience new failures which will spark new successes.
Do not let failing define you and do not let the fear of failure, stop you from living a wonderful life.